Should I go back?

Life takes us along a set course,

our choices our decisions made.

But sometimes we meet a reckoning force,

taunting and declaring them to be a fake.

I left the restaurant that day,

with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart.

The memories of a dear one do not fade away,

they stay entrenched as if never to depart.

Years passed by living on my own,

but the heart was constantly being pulled.

Reminding all  the times that have gone,

in the company of someone I loved.

For years I thought to return,

to the place where my memories were contained.

To visit places that were of both our concern,

Is a question that haunted my mind.

I walked alone as a traveler on the road of time,

under the cover of the rainy skies.

Should i turn back, with a smile ?

I wondered as I inwardly cried.

I had left thinking her dead,

leaving my town my world and my love behind.

Knowing her to be alive was a God sent,

As before does she wait for me eagerly lifting the window blind?

renukakkar 27.12.2011

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Meri zindagi ho tum

Meri zindagi ho tum,

tumhe  doondhoon kahan.

Naa to milne aye tum,

naa chorha koi raaste ka nishan.

Na vo kushi tumhare bin,

na raha vo hasein samaa.

Aab to tumhare bin,

lage sab soonha soonaha.

Aankho se aansu hein tapakte, 

aansu nahi meri dil ka hai dard.

Mujhe tum bataa too dete,

ki aab mai jaau kidhar. 

Tumhara hi intezaar mein baathe hein,

koi khabar ,chitti paatri bejh do aab.

Hum aankhe darwaze pe lagaye baathe hein,

tum yeah tumhara sandasha aayega kab.

Meri zindagi ho tum,

tumhe doondhoon kahan.

Naa to  milne aye tum,

naa choorha koi raaste ka nishan.

renukakkar 19.12.2011

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Would never have let you go...

You have gone and without you,

somehow i will learn to live it is true. 

The flame of our love in my heart will brightly burn, 

and I will learn to smile through the pain.

With my own hands it seems,

I extinguished those flames perhaps?

The times I spent happily in your company,

cannot be erased from my heart so quickly?

I did not asked from life for too much,

but my eyes are for ever now moist . 

I have found myself facing adverse conditions,

fatigued after the struggles with my circumstances. 

With my own hands it seems,

I extinguished those flames perhaps?

The times I spent happily in your company,

cannot be erased from my heart so quickly?

If i had the tiniest hint of the impending,  

the doom that awaited my boat a sailing.

I would have stopped what was to have come,

and not let you go even for a second. 

With my own hands it seems,

I extinguished those flames perhaps?

The times I spent happily in your company,

cannot be erased from my heart so quickly?

I would have stopped you i am sure, 

Destiny has shown me this day unfair.

It seems as if even the angels,

were not happy with are meets.

With my own hands it seems,

I extinguished those flames perhaps?

The times I spent happily in your company,

cannot be erased from my heart so quickly?

renukakkar 8.12.2011

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Brides and bridegrooms

So many expectant bridegrooms, looking for brides,

so many suitors, as if waiting at the aisle.

Will they all find girls of their dreams, I ponder?

The girls are thoughtful and also in wonder.

Marriage is a risk that is taken by all

Will their expectations culminate into exes and naught?

Most men look for moneyed females,

a lazy life to help them financially pass. 

These days who sees character, talent or looks,

Money is the criteria which hides all blotches.

The girls not so moneyed are left high and dry,

No suitors for them and another year passes them by.

But what is this I see in a poor cottage there?

Stands a man on the carpet threadbare. 

A man of character he surely is, 

Possessing a serene face sans any airs.

A light of love shines around him, 

As he kneels before the love of his dream.

She and he are lucky to have found each other,

Compatibility and love are commodities that are rare.

True love is an emotion that lasts a lifetime,

Provided it is nurtured with care and kind.

May we all find life partners that are so loving,

Life will become a dreamboat of understanding.

renukakkar 15.12.2011

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Tum ko na jane dete kabhi

Ae jaane wale teri judai mein,

kisi bhi tarah hum jee lenge. 

Teri yaad mein dil ka diya jalai, 

hamashein hum muskara denge.

Apne hi haaton se humne

dil ka diya bujha dala kaise?

Tumhare saat beetaye lamhe

bhoola doon mein kaise?

Manga to nahi tha bahut humne,

par aankoin mein to nammi aai. 

Aapne aap ko hamesha humne.

haalaat se joojhte, thakaawat paai.

Apne hi haaton se humne

dil ka diya bujha dala kaise?

Tumhare saat beetaye lamhe

bhoola doon mein kaise?

Agar hum ko ilm hota

kashti majdhar mein girh jayagi.

Aanhoni ko dete rookwaa,

tum ko na jane dete kabhi. 

Apne hi haaton se humne

dil ka diya bujha dala kaise?

Tumhare saat beetaye lamhe

bhoola doon mein kaise?

Rook lete tum ko kasam se, 

Taqdeer ne yeh din dikhlaya,

Aaisa laga humko jaise.

fristho ko hamara milna raas na aya,

Apne hi haaton se humne

dil ka diya bujha dala kaise?

Tumhare saat beetaye lamhe

bhoola doon mein kaise?

renukakkar 8.12.2011

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Head of family is lazy

Again comes Saturday and Sunday,

 work to be done though the day's a holiday.
Hey what is this? the Family Head is lazying away,
all the newspapers he is reading today.


The Home Government (wife) hands him a list,
the month long required groceries are to be bought.
But the Family Head is lazying away,
setting aside the paper, he is channel surfing all day.


Order has been given by him for chick pea and pooris,
of kidney beans with gravy and rice as well as cottage cheese delicacies. 
His wife, a servant, he has  now made,
And friends he is calling for lunch to partake.


His wife hits her forehead with her hand,
what a madman  I have by mistake wed?
Wish I could also get a job somehow, 
 bossy behaviour lessons he deserves now. 


Is it easy to do a job tell me?
the kids and the house are not easy to manage ?
Such Family Head type people are everywhere,
a voice from within was head by her.


There in office bossy attitude persists even today ,
work done by women, is done by them they say.
Multitasking is something they all make noises about,
multitasking is in reality what women do without a doubt.


God for a day please reverse the flow of the Ganges River,
let the family head become the head of the home government, Sir.
Multitasking and cooking, his headache will become,
I will read the paper or do channel surfing, then.

renukakkar 2.12.2011

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AAlsi Family Head

Phir aa gaya shanivaar or ravivaar,
chutti hai office se kuch kaam kar lo yaar.
Yeah kya, family head toh sustaa rahe hai,
akhbaar pe akhbaar parhi jaa rahe hai.


Home Government ne list thama di,
raashan  maheene ka laana hai abhi.
Parantu family head to sustaa rahe hai,
akhbaar chorh, channel surfing kare jaa rahe hai.


Order de channe poori khane ka,
or rajma chawal ka, paneer pakaro ka. 
Apni biwi ko nakaur bana diya aaj hai,
Dosto ko daawat pe bulaye jaa rahe hai.


Biwi ne maathe pe haat de mara,
kaise paagal se parha hai mera pala.
Kash mein bhi naukari pe jaati, 
to is ko bossgiri ka sahi jawaab deti. 


Aasaan hai naukari pe jaana kya?
na baccho ko na ghar ko sambhal paana kya?,
Family head jaise aalsi log office mein bhi hai,
biwi ke man mein se awaaz turant aati.


Wahain bhi aise bossgiri karte honge,
auraut ke kaam ko apna kaam bolte hoge.
Multi tasking ki barhi barhi baate karte hai,
auraut hi multitasking sachmuch karti hai.


Bagavan ek din ke liye ulti ganga baha do,
family head ko home government bana do.
phir mai baethungi akhbaar parhne yeh chanal surfing karte,
multitasking or khana banana sab vo sambhale. 
[lol]


renukakkar 2.12.2011
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For you

Keep the flame of your longings awake,

in life a name for yourself please do make. 

Your sad face does not look good make it bright. 

bring a small smile, laughter in your life.

If this life had been happy always. 

I would have sought and obtained self blessings. 

We say all people are our kith and kin, 

but never ever does this happen. 

I want so much for you, 

to stop time if i had power to so do. 

Give all my dreams for you, 

if need be to give my life for you.  

Each second is beautiful for me today,

in my heart i see your face there only. 

Let the worldly wise think what they want I do not care,

not their company but I need your company and care.

Life is not in our hands,

we all know these facts.

If you cannot come at least promise to do so,

i will life my life waiting for you. 

I sneezed non stop just now,

it seems some one remembered me.

Tell me is it the truth or is it a dream ?

I feel that that you remembered me.

One day from this waiting i will get relief, 

my heart will swell up with eternal peace. 

I pass my days and nights in your memories, 

Are you also passing your time in my memories?

renukakkar30.11.2011

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Tumhare liye

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Apne dil mein armaan jagaye rakhana,

zindagi mein apni pachan banaye rakhana. 

Udas surat acchi nahi lagati tumhari. 

kuch pal hoto pe le aao thori si hansi .

Yeh zindagi agar hameshein hasin hoti 

kudh se duva mangane se vo kabul hoti. 

Hum kehate hein sab apne hai, 

parantu aisa kabhi kya hota nai. 

Tumhare liye hum chahate hein, 

rook de samay ko agar vo ho bus mein. 

Nichavor kar de apne sapne sabi, 

tumhare liye jaan bhi de dein apni.  

Aaj ke liye her pal khubsaroot hai,

dil mein siraf tumhari surat hai. 

Dunyia wale kuch bhi samjhe koi gum nahi, 

dunyia walo ki nahi humae tumhari zaroorat hai.

Zindagi apne bas mein hoti nahi,

yeah hum acchi tarah jante hai.

Tum na aa sako to bus aane ka vada kar do,

hum intezaar mein jee lenge tum dekh lo. 

Cheenkoin ki lahar chali abhi,

kisi ne yaad kiya hume laga tabhi.

Kya ye haqikat hai khwab to nahi ?

hume aysas hua yaad karne wale ho tum hi? 

Kabhi intazaar ke palou se chootkara hoga, 

dil mein sakoon ka ayasas hoga. 

Guzarte kaise din raat yadou mein, tumhe mehasos hoga, 

kya tumhe bhi hamara intazaar hoga ?

renukakkar30.11.2011

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Families

Families we all have who shower their love on us,

the love remains steady even when we behave like idiots.

Sometimes we are boring, lazy or extremely bad, 

in spite of all this our families love us which seems sad.

We cannot chose our families like we chose friends,

but sometimes family members look like odds and ends.

There are some common things among them and us.

we may not admit but our families mould our lives.

We might end up looking like our great grandfathers,

having personalities of our great uncles.

We might have eccentricities like our granduncles,

and be called as similar family black sheeps.

If we ever ever feel mad with our families and want to run,

we should think before assigning them to our mind's dustbin.

Ask those who have no family,how much alone they are.

families are not made with an exchange offer. 

renukakkar 29.11.2011

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What does my future hold for me ?

What does my future hold for me?

I wish I could get to know.

My past goes with me,

where ever i want to go.

The best years of my life,

are  perhaps gone for ever.

But in my memories of life,

they live on for ever.

My friends and dear ones are no more with me,

but they are ever young in my memories.

Their pictures will for ever stay with me,

as long as i retain those memories.

When ever I feel the need,

to talk to them.

All I have to do indeed,

is to my mind recall them.

As of now it is the present,  

that is what is most important now.

The memories were of past,

and a new day begins as the sun rises tomorrow.

Giving me a fresh new page to write on,

all new memories for the future.

I have to live in the present and in the now,

before my time comes some day in future.

I will build my memories again,

adding new and better ones every day.

Ensuring that I become a better person,

than I was yesterday.

My own betterment,

is a spiritual upward pathway.

Striving for excellence,

is the lesson of my destiny. 

renukakkar 27.11.2011

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A place of love

Let us go somewhere come,

very far away from here, come.

Where no one knows us,

where no one can recognize us.

A dream like place for us, 

the moon and stars are there for us.

The earth and the sky is ours,

where only we are and no on else.

Let us go somewhere come,

very far away from here, come.

Where no one knows us,

where no one can recognize us.

The sun brightly shines for us,

the moonlight is too spread for us.

No one is there to trouble us,

is there a place like that on earth?

Let us go somewhere come,

very far away from here, come.

Where no one knows us,

where no one can recognize us.

A house full of love we will build,

where love birds will also be found.

The angels of love will also be there,

a garden of love not found anywhere.

Let us go somewhere come,

very far away from here, come.

Where no one knows us,

where no one can recognize us.

renukakkar 19.11.2011

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Pyar ka Jahein

Kahien door chalein chalo,

bahut door yaha se chalo.

Jahein hame koi jaanta na ho,

jahein hame koi pechanta na ho.

Ek sapne jaisa jahein ho, 

chand or tare hamare ho.

Zameen or aakash bhi hamara ho,

bus hum ho, or koi or na ho.

Kahien door chalein chalo,

bahut door yaha se chalo.

Jahein hame koi jaanta na ho,

jahein hame koi pechanta na ho.

Suraj hamare liye aata ho,

chand bhi roshni bikherta ho.

Hame jahein koi satata na ho,

aisi jagha kahein zameen pe milti ho.

Kahien door chalein chalo,

bahut door yaha se chalo.

Jahein hame koi jaanta na ho,

jahein hame koi pechanta na ho.

Pyar bara aishein ho,

jahein pyar ke panchi ho.

Pyar ke firshte bhi ho,

aisa ek pyar ka gulistan ho.

Kahien door chalein chalo,

bahut door yaha se chalo.

Jahein hame koi jaanta na ho,

jahein hame koi pechanta na ho.

renukakkar 19.11.2011

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Smile a little, happy you will be

Ek souch aapne liye

Muskura do zara, khushi saat hai

Hans lo zara, zindagi badalti hai. 

Rooko tanik, samay to hai 

Zindagi ko jee lo, waqt saath hai. 

Rishte toote, bolo nahi

Samay nikalo, risthe vahi. 

Bahane banana, jane do bhi 

gairon se dosti, karo to sahi. 

Aaaj ka soona, aaj hi sahi 

sapne deko, nith naye tabhi. 

Sabhi ke pas, dukh to ha 

khul ke roh lo, unhe phanko sahi. 

Paisa ho kafi, piche baagho nahi 

Kuch sikho naya, baad mein pachtao nahi, 

renukakkar 17.11.2011

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Strangers come into our lives after winning our trust

Strangers come into our lives after winning our trust,

to occupy in our dreams places that are prominent.

We trust and believe them to be our own,

but by breaking that trust they vanish into the unknown.

Spring comes and leaves us after a while,

in bad times  many friends also leave with a smile.

To whom can we complain about this,

as soon as day breaks even the stars leave us.

The shade of trees provide relief from the scorching sun,

but some trees cannot even provide shade in the afternoon.

During the peak summer hours some shady trees betray us,

so why should we lament when people behave thus?

Coming and going are the norms of the world in which we live,

seasons, scenes, nature and people are time bound to leave.

The sooner we understand that life deceives, 

we will not lament if someone dear leaves.

renukakkar 15.11.2011

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Log aate hai zindagi mein hamara vishwas jeet ke

Log aate hai zindagi mein hamara vishwas jeet ke, 

aankhon mein samaa jaatey hai khwab ban ke.

Hame yakeen ho jaata hai ki vo humare hai, 

na jane kaha goum ho jaate hai viswas torh ke.

Bahaare aati hai or phir saath chhoar jaati hai, 

bure samay pe doosth bhi saath chhoar jaate hai. 

Shikhwa kare hum to kis se kare,

subha hote sitare bhi saath chhoar jaate hai.

Paidho ki chhav jalti dhoop se raahat deeti hai,

parentu kai paidh doophar ko kaha chhav de paate hai .

Kari dhoop mai to chhav bhi dhooka de jaati hai,

to Insaano se hum kyu ummeed rakhate hain.

Duniya ka neeam to aana or jaana hai,

mausam, sristhi, nazaare saath chhoard deti hai.

Is baat ko hum aachi tarah samajh lein, 

koi jaye vishwas tor ke to hum dil pe na llein. 

renukakkar 14.11.2011

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My guardian Angle

When I feel  lonely and sad, 

like everyone feels sometimes.

When there no one around, 

from within me I hear chimes.

I turn my thoughts inward,

searching deep within my heart.

A voice of an Angel is heard,

telling me that we are not apart.

A smile lights up my face,

and I feel the sun shining again.

I hear a soft and sweet voice,

telling me that everything is fine.

We seem to be alone, it is true,

but I never feel alone at all.

Whenever I am sad and blue

all I do I to give my Angel a call.

My Angel I have yet to see,

as I only hear its voice.

I do not know if it is male or female,

as I have yet to see its face.

An Angel’s love is there forever,

this Angel of mine is really grand.

Giving sound advice whenever,

I need it like a friend.

renukakkar 12.11.2011

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Living life lifelessly

I live my life,

as if it is lifeless. 

As a flame of a wick lamp,

emits no brightness. 

Separation was written beforehand,

now meeting is impossible.

How two hearts are pained,

no direction to meet seems possible.

I live my life,

as if it is lifeless. 

As a flame of a wick lamp,

emits no brightness. 

It looked as if,

i would acquire happiness.

But my boat got stuck in a whirlpool,

reaching the bank was aimless.

I live my life,

as if it is lifeless. 

As a flame of a wick lamp,

emits no brightness. 

A smile on the lips is seen,

but it does not reach the heart.

I smile to hide my pain,

so no one can see my hurt.

I live my life,

as if it is lifeless. 

As a flame of a wick lamp,

emits no brightness.

The moon, the fresh air ,the scene,

are no longer necessary.

If you can not be with me,

their being here for me is un happy.


I live my life,

as if it is lifeless. 

As a flame of a wick lamp,

emits no brightness.

Somehow manage and meet me, 

awaiting for you my eyes wait anxiously.

Do not take so long in coming,

that i am not alive to meet you eventually. 

I live my life,

as if it is lifeless. 

As a flame of a wick lamp,

emits no brightness.

renukakkar 10.11.2011

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Jeete hai hum yu hi

Jeete hai hum yu hi,

lekin zindagi nahin.

Jalte hue diye ki lou main,

jaise roshni nahi.

Judai to likhi pahle se,

aab to milna mumkin nahi.

Kaise tarape do dil,

koi raasta dikhta nahi.

Jeete hai hum yu hi,

lekin zindagi nahin.

Jalte hue diye ki lou main,

jaise roshni nahi.

Lagne laga tha jaise,

kushiya hongi hasil abhi.

Lekin majdhar me naav,

kinare se lagi nahi.

Jeete hai hum yu hi,

lekin zindagi nahin.

Jalte hue diye ki lou main,

jaise roshni nahi.

Hootho pe hansi hai,

lekin dil mai aye nahi.

Haste hai zakhum chupaye,

koi aur dekhe nahi.

Jeete hai hum yu hi,

lekin zindagi nahin.

Jalte hue diye ki lou main,

jaise roshni nahi.

Yeah chand ye hawa ye nazare,

sab ki aab zaroot nahi.

Agar tum paas na honge,

to inka  vajood hi nahi.

Jeete hai hum yu hi,

lekin zindagi nahin.

Jalte hue diye ki lou main,

jaise roshni nahi.

Aajao tum kisi tara bhi, 

karte intazaar nazre thake nahi.

Itni bhi dher na ho kabhi,

hum  tumhe zinda mile nahi. 

Jeete hai hum yu hi,

lekin zindagi nahin.

Jalte hue diye ki lou main,

jaise roshni nahi.

renukakkar 9.11.2011

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Winter knocks

The nip in the air, winter onset is indicating

the wind blowing has a biting feeling

making a sound while it is blowing.

to face the cold weather our town is readying.

The sun is seen less and less

it's warmth is un felt, if it comes

People dress in dark and heavy clothes  

as if to match the gloomy clouds.

Towards December the cold intensifies

the neck, head and ears take cover

As the doorbell rings we look at each other

whose turn is it to open the door ?

The warmth of the room heater is 13 or less,

temperature outside of 2 or even lower it goes

As Christmas nears, snowflakes the town witnesses

higher regions have snow covered mountains. 

Christmas and New Year is a white one

with a white blanket cover of soft snow

The clouds not to be outdone

matches the snow on trees,houses roads to the bone.

Nights are without clouds and clear

seems as if the stars are much near

Tourists come here for mental peace

this time for them is a bonus indeed. 

My home town I am missing 

would love to watch snow flakes falling

I'm ready to face the north winds biting and blowing

My childhood memories I would enjoy reliving. 

renukakkar 6.11.2011

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How important it is to study ?

Anand was a poor lad,

which was indeed a pity.

A will to learn he had,

and his maths was indeed wizardly.

Languages especially ancient,

he was comfortable learning.

His spellings were great,

and Geography was outstanding.

A real intelligent kid,

who had a great intelligent quotient.

To teach him a teacher would be proud, 

the making of a great man was his potential.

A tailor shop his father had,

wanted his son to join the  trade. 

Study books and fees was now matter dead, 

son should help  earn family its bread.

Anand sits cross legged on a low table,

and now learns to snip and sew.

Snipping at cloths that he is able.

to make them into wearable clothes you know.

Poor Anand what a life's waste,

as he bravely faces a future unpalatable.

Indeed a matter of a study case,

emotionally blackmailed into  undesirable.

As your clothes he for you fits,

wonder what in his mind he thinks?

Perhaps, that he is really a misfit,

what life has more unpleasant surprises ? 

There is hope in every situation,

a kind client one day came by.

Got him admitted in a school open,

to complete his education by and by.

renukakkar 5.11.2011

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