Love hurts

Love isn’t a decision we make,

it’s a feeling that itself stakes.

Rising from the heart’s core,

unresting till it finds it is secure…

You walked into my life like fresh air ,

without my knowing you became so dear.

My thoughts are with you all day,

from waking up till i sleep away..

i have started seeing you in my dreams too,

scenes of how we first met each other so.

My heart starts to pound away in anticipation.

i dread to think it as my imagination.

I love you so much that it hurts,

I don’t know how to describe all in words.

I’d like you to see the love in my eyes for you,

as I’d want want to see love reflected from yours.

renukakkar 3.3.2011
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A memory of childhood

I remember vividly my childhood days,
how I enjoying the two months summer vacations days.
To escape the scorching heat we'd pack our stuff,
from delhi and bombay we'd catch the plane, train and bus.

Tired and wilted into the cool valley we arrived,
there in the hillside my paternal grand parents lived.
Water there like bottled water from the fridge's snow,
all around us natural clean air would blow.

We would play all day without any restrictions,
kanalpathari or to baghsu we would go with aspiration.
Programmes for pic-nic we would make and set off on foot,
the flowing water was blocked with a slate for mangoes to cool..

Our bedding would be in the courtyard of grandparents house,
the cool breeze would provide a mother's lap and the stars showering guiding from above.
Grandmother would tell strange stories,
of fairies and u.f.o's would be these stories.

Now there is no grandfather or grandmother and we grow old too,
but even now I go to those cool vallies.
My children accompany me during their excurtations,
I take them along with me to their maternal grandmothers residence.
renukakkar 26,02.2011
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एक याद बचपन की

याद हमें आती हैं बचपन के दिनों की, 

दो महीने की छुट्टियो को बीताने के दिनों की. 

तपती गर्मीयो के दिनों में सब भागते, 

दिल्ली मुंबई से पलेन, ट्रेन और बस पकड़ते. 

थके और मुरझाऐ ठंडी वादियों में पहुंचते, 

जहाँ रहते थे दादा दादी हमारे. 

वहां का पानी जैसे फ्रिज में रखखी बिसलेरी. 

चारो तरफ प्राकृतिक हवा थी चलती. 

बिना रोक टोक सारा दिन हम उधम मचाते, 

कभी कनालपत्थरी तो कभी भाग्सू हम जाते. 

पिक-निक की योजना बनाकर पैदल ही चलते, 

झर्ने के पानी में सलेट लगा आम ठन्डे थे करते. 

रात को बिच्छोनें लगते थे आंगन में, 

तारों के नीचे शुद्ध और ठंडी वायु की गोद में. 

दादी सुनाती थी अजब कहानियाँ, 

पारियों तथा यु अफ औ की कहानियाँ. 

न दादा न दादी रहे और न रहे बच्चे हम, 

परन्तु अब भी जाते हैं ठंडी वादियों में हम. 

गर्मी की छुट्टियों में अपने बच्चों को लेकर, 

जाते हैं हम अब बच्चों की नानी के घर. 

रेनू कक्कर 26.2.2011

The Star and the Sunflower

Hey you up there shining so bright,
How you light up the darkness of the night.
Along with your sister companions,
To lost strangers you show directions.

How can you do that I wonder?
So tiny you are and coming from yonder.
I move with the sun as its follower,
you see I am just a sunflower.

Your light comes from another world,
like the twinkling of the sun in the waterworld.
You remain hidden during the day,
but come out at night to play.

I wish I could be like you,
tied to earth I am it is true.
Like you I would love to be free,
to travel afar and useful to be.

Why do I lament, I am a beautiful flower,
the sun's image within I have acquired.
The star you see above in the night skies,
is a sun of another world like mine.

The star on its own cannot give much light,
all stars combine to shine their light with might.
You are a compound of flowers gathered,
teaching people to live together.

Your  each part has uses of beauty & oils.
after your death compose you provide.
Till your end each part is useful of yours,
like each good individual makes a nation good and pure.

We should realise like the sunflower
and not underestimate our power.
We each as individuals have potential,
but when together we are invincible.

renukakkar 22.2.2011

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किस्मत

न थी हमारी किस्मत,

हमसफ़र साथ होता.

ज़िन्दगी के कठिन राहों पे,

हमारे साथ जो चलता.

न थी हमारी किस्मत…

किए थे वादे हमसे,

भुला दिए सब तुमने.

अग्नि को साक्षी मान के,

भी वादे जो किए थे तुमने.

न थी हमारी किस्मत …

हमारी दुनिया से दूर,

उस दुनिया में चले तो गए हो.

इस ज़िन्दगी के रास्ते पे,

अकले चलने को छोड़ गए हो.

न थी हमारी किस्मत…

हर मुश्किल का सामना,

हम अकेले ही करेंगे.

न हो तुम साथ तो क्या,

तुम्हारी याद के संग करेंगे.

न थी हमारी किस्मत…

इस जीवन का साथ जो छूटा,

अगले जीवन में न होने देंगे.

सावित्री बनके हम तो,

यमराज से भी लड़ लेंगे.

न थी हमारी किस्मत ….

renukakkar

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Beloved Stranger

A stranger to me you seemed,
upside down my life you turned.
I was so sure of what ever i did,
now whatever you said held me captive.

I had lived my live as I thought it fit,
without the need for anyone to enter it.
But you came and swept me off my feet,
and before I knew it you became my heartbeat.

I am sure you felt the same way,
as many times you called me in a day.
Making an extremely nice nuisance of yourself,
causing me a bit of undue embarrassment.

Then one day you came suddenly,
in an agitated mood you seemed to be.
Uttering ‘I Love you’ with great elan,
you proposed with a ring in your hand.

With a gentle look you took my hand.
on the third finger the ring you placed.
The whole day I was on cloud nine ,
with visions of happy days in future time.

Our lives now together engaged,
I remember the day we were wed.
a week from valentine day exactly,
our souls that day were united eternally.

How fortunate we are indeed,
that we have found true love so sweet.
A love so true till infinity,
that all dream of constantly.

renukakkar 14.2.2011
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My Shadow

My companion since childhood,

by me she has always stood.

I walk with a straight posture,

always sleeping is its behavior.

Her aim is to try and defeat me,

to reach every place before me.

Though she knows she is tied to me,

but she searches for her own identity.

Maybe hassled with my habits,

She looks for a place new to inhabit.

Compared to my life which is scattered,

The life of others seems uncluttered.

I wish it could have been possible,

to set her free for her searchable.

I would have lived my life alone,

And she would have lived her own.

A shadow is a shadow,

God’s rules it has to follow.

We are tied together presently,

The time for freedom is not yet to be.

When that time comes,

The day of reckoning will come.

Freedom from each other to achieve,

And resolve go our separate ways I believe.

renukakkar 17.01.2011

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